Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in sumday18's LiveJournal:

Saturday, June 19th, 2004
9:21 pm	hay i havent writen on this one in ages and obviously i dont need to explain things in short i cheted on sarah scott told her with fuck all right to do so and she knows everything is a s good as could be expected and i love her irealy do but im lossing her slowly so i suppose this is an apeal of sorts shut up dont say anything about it to her and more ok yer she can say stuff but she dont need everyone else to remindher and i dont need it it takes 2 to tango the thing is stop it ok sarah doesent want it ok i can take it but sarah aint me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 10th, 2004
8:41 pm	replaced pv v1 pre verse c i want to be back v2 i want purposs cx2 i want all i had mid 8 v3 verse 1 c im replaced pv im rejected so im encased in a box fastend only opened when needed verse 2 im contemplating im shunted so im not exciting being locked up is so frightning verse 3 iv fallen im hauling somthing behind me but im so lost im so fustrated chorus im locked up iv been thrown im replaced only a cup to my own im replaced mid 8 replace me the old model replace me from yesterday replace me Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
11:15 am	vearse 1 this tourter is pain less iv been through it so many times so take a stabing guess cus the stabing wont hurt among this mess vearse 2 everyone says iv lost its true just not wat you think and the cost is deeper than that sink im sowly sinking in chorus go leave me im going you dont want me im used to it go leave me im going you need me but you cant see it mid 8 so im stuck so im lost in the awe of your beauty don't don't don't don't don't don't believe me i know you wont Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: billy talent this is how it goes (Comment on this)
Friday, April 2nd, 2004
4:22 pm	its like im stuck at the moment im happy but sad at the same time its like im great iv got no worrys but then again im sad cus iv got no worries am i a problem junkie do i need them to keep me me alil confusing i meen i cant help but try to help people with there problems is that a bad quility i dunno any more it does feel like a greatatudles qulity but maby i like that i dont know lol any way i suppose i cant grummble though but i think its time i stood up and said i am me and you are you stop being judgmental Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: LESS THAN JAKE- the brightest bulb has burnt out (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 28th, 2004
3:41 am	SCOTT IS A FUCKING BIG HEADED NOB SUCKING DONKY DICKRIDING HIPOCRITICAL SHIT FACE AND I VOTE FOR HIM TO FUCK OF AND LEAVE (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 27th, 2004
10:06 pm	i lose a lot of things and i dunno y i meen y am i such a fuck up i dont have to say do touch anything and it fals to pieces i meen im just torchering my self a little i know but life sucks and i dont know y i wish i could of taken more of a chance with certen ppl and wished id realised gemma was a piece of shit im a fuck up of majour porportions that much i get her cast upon me from the very pits of hell and wats so anoying she will never leave my mind cus she leaves a thing of misstrust of all woman and it shouldent but it does and it sucks so much but i hope one day there will be some one which will prove me wrong and i will be fine and hunkydory but i cant believe that and its all her fault actuly i suppose its my fault i meen i must have drove her to cheat on me so many times its a pile of shit my love lif because thats all ppl do on it take a crap on it and its usualy my heart which they decide to devour befor telling me they then need to crap and fuck me up big style but i suppose thats it realy im a nice guy im the guy you can run to wen ur in trouble or in pain but when im in pain i havent got any one cus there all sorted and happy and im ill observed i sit and pretend cus thats all my life is one big act cus im never happy im always losing im the stupid lesser wanted one who is only turned to as a scape goat im so obviously thick enough to be walked over but if thick meens im not a hipocritical cleaver nob fuck and means i am me then bring on the shit but that part the advice the shoulder to lean on its the only realpart of me its the only part that realy exists any more and i dont know how to get the rest back and its a slow degresion from me cus being me has slowly run me in to the ground cus it just means iv become the pet of everyone else it means that i play along everyone lse cus i am insgnificant as scott said a band is only big wen the bass player is recognised and guess wat im never realy recognised cus im not big im not cleaver im just some thick shit who trys to alow him self to live when no one realy wants him to cus im a waste a waste of everyones space and time andim just not worth effort any more iv always known this but never realy vented it i dont realy have any one cus iv helped them all im rejected from everyone eventualy cus they no longer have problems and iv still got all mine cus i cant vent them im to much of an idoit to do so and to cleaver to hurt my self im stuck in a perpetual limbo stuck with my problems and everyone elses and i cant escape and wen i move everyone elses im left on my own single lonly deserted and all and all left out cus no one realy notices me im the one who sits back and trys to be the bigger man and just get pushed back thurther and i right lyrics because i need to vent but how can ivent feelings with shit lyrics with about as much talent as a fish and as much confadence as one im not me im a shell and i always have been it just goes to say that i am always last because im not importent enough to be noticed and not good enough to be first i need someone somthing and soul i need to be refild with belife faith in humanity inmy self but thats gone and i dont think it's coming back im not me im nothing any more im just that guym who noone notecies unless its to take the piss but it doesent hurt cus it either a jk or its so shallow it doesent hit my slowly subsiding fellings Current Mood: numb Current Music: box car racer there is (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:55 pm	scrap that last thing well most of it (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
7:03 pm	ok new one everyone has joind so iv done this i cant beleive it it happend again the curse of dave y can nothing go right and if im right then it spreads 2 cus it spread to billie and she is hurt and i sorta know y but dont know y but i just feel once again alone and not so happy gfood things come to those that wait and then are taken away week l8r sounds about right wat a lod of shgit though it realy is i cant stand it any more it just gets me so down to know im not that bad a guy not in a big headed way but im not ijust get walked ove or hurting ppl and in the grand old dominoi effect i get hurt i just hate my life cus nothing goes right gemma nat amy now some one else i wont win or is it i just wont learn Current Mood: crappy (1 Comment |Comment on this)